Listening to myself..

what stops me from doing i actually want to? why i always deny the urge i needed to do with life?i keep on doing all irrelevant things in life instead of what my dreams guide me to do. sometimes----i let my destiny take its own course as if i am a petal drifted by the waves,losing all control and land up i never imagined to be.

and sometimes.... i try so hard even then all the efforts go futile.

i don't know the answer .do u know ? if so please let me know.i am not courageous enough i suppose.

May be i am an average person or may be below average.The question is whether i am happy or not,but without acheiving our goals can we be happy even?

i have not decided my goals even.......